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monday!went to have seoul garden lunch with the j1 n j2 excos.the turnout was quite disappointingcuz only 4 j1s turned up.but overall, still quite okie.ate quite a lot.hahas.i found out tat the boys,esp junming n chin hao walked soo fast.the gers couldnt catch up with them lor.:Pden we went to take neoprints togn made lame poses.hahas. later in the evening,me n yunhui went to join the class at downtown east.talked a lot a lot on the train.=xthe chalet was okay.the room was much cleaner n bigger than i expected.well. spent most of my time stoning n chatting.yupps.long time didnt talk to huiying too le.miss those days when we tan xin shi.tml ee teng, jia hui, jiayang, krystal n me going to botanic gardenswith those kids again.i know kry cant stand noisy kids.haha.wonder how she will react to them.:Parghs.so many things left undone.pw. homewrk. exams.really got no time le.i feel so tied down by so many things.i need some time for a breather.:(
after much deliberation,i finally decided i will be going for tml's class chalet.n staying too.hope i dun regret it.not all wld be coming though.wei jie is one of them.in fact.i kinda miss his ''scoldings''.hahas.really.i rmb v clearly tat for all the chaletshe is there to help me.really hope to be happy there.:)
i woke up really early this morning.6am!we only nd to report there like 8.15amafter drinkin tea with my pa at some coffeeshop,i met up with yunhui n ee teng.jia hui joined us at the zoo.we went to the centre to meet the kids.den we were brought to a room with all those kids.omg.they were noisy.n i mean really noisy.hahas.kinda expected it.youngest p1.oldest sec1.the teacher gave each of us a card made by one of the students.i was v touched lor.it was v sweet of them.=Dden we went to interact n know them for 10 mins.some or most of them have ap.n kinda rude.but they are still kids bahs.generally, those kids are nicee.a few gers like to hold my hand.and a particular ger stuck to me like nearly the entire trip.one say i look 20 years old. :Obut one say i look 15. :Dhaha.the gers are really mature for their age.they talk stuff tat i dun say them during my age.better not list them here.hehs. some told me they got bf le.i was like speechless.they seemed quite experienced.haha.after seeing the animal show, elephant show, n a kiddy show [duno wat]we went to eat kfc.the 4 of us sat on kiddy chairs n table.haha.the HIGHLIGHT of the day.play pool.!okies.the kids are damn excited over it.i n ee teng wore long pants.n guess wad?those kids pushed me into the pool.luckily the pool was only ankle's deep.ee teng thanks for giving them the idea hor.haha.they are violent.imagine abt 8 kids surrounding n pulling u n splashing water over u.in the end, i was completely drenched.n worst still, i didnt have spare clothes.end up walkin with soaked, heavy jeans.
haha.
they took awfully long time to change too.almost shouted at the boys. [or did i? haha]they went crazy over tis underwear tat nobody wans to claim.haha.in all,they're adorable.on the way back to the exit.i was completely shagged.nth beats taking care of those hyperactive kids.enjoyed myself with them.=Du ARE an ASS.yeshh.u are one.wo hui ba ni wang de.wo yi ding hui de.ni lang fei wo wei ni zuo de yi qie.ni xian zai kai xin le ma?wo hao sha.wo hao chun.wo ai shang yi ge wo bu gai ai de ren.thanks kry. really.:)
this morning went back to school for chem lesson.okies.the quiz was difficult.as expected.anyways, i got back our gp essay.i passed!hahas.tot i would fail badly.later im going out again.to shop!hehs. hehs.tml jia hui ee teng yun hui n mewill be going to the ZOO. haha!going with the daybreak kids.it's been a long time since i last went.hahs!i duno why u doing this to me.im hurt.angry.sad.
arghhs.feel so damn stressed.have been going out every day.there's simply no time to studywhy did they have to put the exams aft the hols?where in the earth we have the time to study?or the movitation?there's a test on term 2 chem topicsor rather a quiz tml.n i haven study yet.know nuts abt chem bonding.hais.=(
i'll be meeting nui-er tml.
haha!
okiess.
yeshh.
i miss her.
it's been quite a longg time since i last saw her le.
sharon cant make it.
*wails*
krystal is still sick.
*wails*
hope she can make it tml.
huiying~
although we see each other less often,
i believe our friendship is still strong as ever.rmb those good old days when we sat tog in chn class,ate every single lunch tog,stayed back in sch to study,fight over who gets to eat xui mai,those gossip sessions, those times we cry over them,the bus trips home,etc etc.i really miss all those times.if only we can relish those memories once more.there's so so much to tell u.i really miss u.thanks for being such a wonderful fren.=DDi love this poem too. thanks to u.really. thanks. I know you're sad today
and I wish I could help you
get past your hurting...
But sometimes, it seems
we just have to hurt a while
and no one can show us the way out...
we have to find it for ourselves
when the time is right.For now, just know that
it's all right to hurt
because I will help you
with your hurt
It's all right to cry...
I will share your tears.
It is only through crying
that you learn
what it's really like to laugh...
only after feeling sadness
can you really experience joy.
So allow yourself
to feel what comes naturally...
but know that someday
life will be easier...
it will be easier to smile.
how's my bloggie? nice ritee? haha! i love it lehs.okie. i spent the whole day MUGGING.sians.haha! actually i didnt really do much lehs.anyways, my mei is back frm her co camp le.okie. i MISS her.lols!yupps. i really felt lonely cuz there wasnt anybody at home with me.hope to get outta of my hse tml.cheer up pam. =D
dont look at my face;
i dont want you to see my tears.
i just want to be left alone with my fear.
i am pain,
my soul is bleeding.
i am rage,
tearing through me.
i am hate,
driving me onward.
i am crying,
can anyone hear me?
do not gaze upon these scars;
forget who helped to put them there.
they will not heal with time.
i am darkness,i cannot move.
i am hopeless,
nothing matters.
i am blind,
i cannot see.
do not concern yourself with my feelings.
i cannot feel them;
i have grown cold and numb inside.
i am the thunder,
crashing.
i am the lightning,
flashing.
i am the rain,
pounding.
i am the storm,
raging.
forget that i am human;
forget that i have loved and lived.
do not dwell on what might have been. i am lost
within myself.
i am afraid
of what i am.
i am empty
inside.
i am invisible
to this world.
i am desperate.
i am alone.
i am screaming.
i am dying.
someone help me.
please, help me.wats happening to me? maybe i shldnt have asked u the question in the first place. i shld have expected tat. great. thanks so damn much.
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